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Join me live for a book club reading of The Body Keeps the Score by Dr. Bessel van der Kolk as we unpack what it means to heal from trauma after life inside the IBLP. This conversation is for survivors who are breaking free from harmful teachings and learning how…

Knitting Cult Lady- Daniella Mestynaek Young is receiving some backlash on social media over a post she made about people coming out of the cult of MAGA. Do you think it’s justified? People are questioning her as an expert and saying they feel off about her. Are these emotional reactions…

In this episode, we combine three parts of the Exposing IBLP series to explore Bill Gothard’s tangled web of “convictions,” parenting formulas, and blame-shifting theology. Gothard teaches that when families struggle, it’s because someone’s disobeying — a dangerous idea that traps followers in endless cycles of guilt and “spiritual fixes.”…

Join me live for a book club reading of The Body Keeps the Score by Dr. Bessel van der Kolk as we unpack what it means to heal from trauma after life inside the IBLP. This conversation is for survivors who are breaking free from harmful teachings and learning how…

In this episode, we dive into the “Ten Basic Convictions” section of the IBLP Men’s Manual, where Bill Gothard lays out a list of supposedly essential beliefs—each backed by carefully selected Old and New Testament verses. But as we take a closer look, something becomes clear: these convictions are just…

When Taylor Swift’s first album dropped I was a mom of two boys under two, deep in a Christian fundamentalist cult and didn’t listen to any secular music. I listened to Taylor’s self titled first album just the other day. Here are my thoughts looking back almost 20 years through…

In this episode, we take a deep dive into Bill Gothard’s confusing—and often contradictory—definition of “convictions.” According to Gothard, convictions are unchanging, visible, and must be a core part of your daily life. But does that mean they can never evolve? And if a conviction doesn't look like something Gothard…

As I dive into the Taylor Swift history I’m a little surprised that she may have been a mean girl. Not because I find it unfathomable, but because her fans portray her very differently. Tell me Swifties, did this article get it right? https://www.thetimes.com/culture/music/article/taylor-swifts-early-years-by-the-people-who-knew-her-d98sn0ws3

In this episode, we wrap up the “What If a Father Has Already Failed?” page from the IBLP Men’s Manual and unpack how Bill Gothard weaponizes failure, parenting struggles, and spiritual guilt. Gothard teaches that if you’re failing as a father, it’s because of disobedience—and that dangerous logic keeps people…

In this episode, I share my perspective as a former cult member on Taylor Swift’s latest album and her public image shift. For years, Taylor has been framed as the “good girl” of pop culture—an image that left little room for her to be seen as a fully grown, sexual…

Join me live for a book club reading of The Body Keeps the Score by Dr. Bessel van der Kolk as we unpack what it means to heal from trauma after life inside the IBLP. This conversation is for survivors who are breaking free from harmful teachings and learning how…

Umbrella Rebellion is a podcast where we share our experience in the ATI/IBLP and fundamental cults. We are on a journey of healing and exposing the teachings that lead to and justify abuse. It is our hope that those who are experiencing abuse can find support and escape from it.…

The IBLP hair and appearance standards episode is live!

People say I’m “blaming” others for the rapture doctrine. I’m not. This is about accountability. Pastors should’ve told us the rapture’s 1800s origins long before Google existed. I share why holding leaders accountable matters—in church, in parenting, and even in government.

In the world before Google research was painstakingly slow. Encyclopedias, dial up internet, and even microfiche were all we had. That made it easy for powerful groups to gatekeep history from everyday people. I didn’t discover the real history of the rapture doctrine until decades later. 👉 Have you ever…

Struggling with AuDHD burnout, procrastination, or perfectionism? 💙 You’re not lazy — you’re human. Sometimes it’s about more than willpower—it’s about identifying barriers and asking for the accommodations you deserve. You’re not behind, and I’m proud of you.

Many IBLP and IFB cult survivors were educationally neglected. It is not your shame to carry, it was your parents responsibility to educate you. It’s never too late to pursue your dreams. #exvangelical #education #educationalneglect #cultsurvivor #pursueyourdreams

In the cult recovery space pushing through isn’t always safe for us. Above all we just need to prioritize our peace and health, but balance that with pushing ourselves when it’s just uncomfortable.